b-coffee (0)+ 4 oz crystal light (2.5)+ cheese bagel (360) + 2 tbsp fat free cream cheese (28)= 390.5
d- cheese bagel (360) + 2 tbsp fat free cream cheese (28) = 388
snack- 2 thin mint cookies (70) + popcorn (210)= 280
I cannot believe I ate so much today! I'm so disappointed in myself and i feel like crap. My stomach is killing me and I feel like I'm going to puke. I'm going to keep my cal count below 400 tomorrow since I have to spend it with my family, otherwise I would be fasting and exercising all day to work off today's failure. UGH! I hate myself for being so weak. I think I'll have to start smoking again just to have something to do when I'm feeling a craving or feeling like I'm going to eat to deal with stress or emotions. I'll sacrifice my lungs for thinness. I'm already sacrificing everything else...