It's been a while since I've been on...
I told my boyfriend about being sick and he was really very supportive but he was worried about me. And then I caught him like really upset about it one night while i spent literally an hour and a half eating two scrambled egg whites. He asked me to go to a doctor and try to get better because he loves me and doesn't really want to love someone who doesn't love herself. So i tried... kinda. I made 10 different appointments with therapists over the course of a month and canceled them all. Now I'm giving up being good, I want to be amazing and the only way to do that is to be thin thin thin. I haven't gained, I've lost some but at a very slow slow rate. I love him but I can't help who I am... I don't want to get better.
Anyway, I've been awake for a few hours and I've had my traditional breakfast of 2 cups black coffee, 1 cup tea, and 2 cups water. All the caffeine and water is good for my but it makes my stomach huge for a while. It's better in the end because it keeps me full for almost the whole day :D
I'll update more later<3