Food Diary:
b- coffee (0)
l- 0
d- 1 egg (63) + 2 egg whites (24) + .5 tsp horseradish (1) + hot sauce (0)= 88

88

Exercise Log:
m-0
a-0
n- update later

0
=
88

I'm far too exhausted to work out today. I couldn't sleep last night and have been just lazying around all day. I decided that since yesterday I dropped 3.5 lbs from just eating below 100 cals for dinner that I should stick to this and see how well it turns out. I'm probably going to do some running later tonight since I now have energy from dinner.
I also calculated my BMR today. It's interesting to see how much your body will burn just from living and breathing. I burn 1,477.5 calories a day just lying in bed. Then you add all the moving around I do all day and that adds a ton more! I lost my first pedometer and I'm going to have to get another one. I saw one on TV. It's made by Philips Electronics and it doesn't only calculate steps, it measures other activities you do-- therefore the more active you are, even if not walking, it will record and measure calories. Fantastic! I just cannot remember the name of the specific device. I need to go run some, later!!

XOX
PEACE.LOVE.STAYSTRONG
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Wow

wow! I lost 3.5 lbs yesterday and I was so sure I wouldn't lose anything! I was feeling shit for not exercising last night like I planned and dreading getting on the scale this morning. It was a great feeling and it's propelled me to eat less than 100 cals again today :D Wow.

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Food Diary:
b- coffee(o)
l- 0
d-1 egg (63)+ 1 egg white (12) + hot sauce (0)+ 4 oz. crystal light (3.5)+ 1.5 slice tomato (4)= 82.5

82.5

Exercise Log:
m-300
a-200
n- 0

500
=
-417.5

Wow. Today was a long dayyyy. I've been up all night organizing and reorganizing my room. I was too hungry to sleep and had to stay preoccupied from eating the entire contents of my refrigerator. Now my room looks so pretty and clean. I was so strong today, I only ate dinner and a very small one at that. my mom looked at my plate and was like "... is that really all you're going to eat?" haha, if only she knew that most days I don't anything =P I'm better at hiding it now, since I was caught last year. Anywho, i definately have to work out a ton tonight to get rid of those cals from dinner.

XOX
PEACE.LOVE.STAYSTRONG
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HAHAHA something to finally laugh at :D

Anorexia. What are the pros and cons?

One pro is that since you're wearing extra layers of clothing to hide your alarming thinness from relatives, you'll rarely catch a chill and come down with a cold. You dress warmly, even in summer.

That's a pro.

A con is that you're hot from overdressing. So you sweat a lot. This is good for the deodorant industry, a pro for them.

Even though you make the decision not to eat, your body keeps eating anyway. Your body says, "okay moron, I'll just ignore you. I'll eat into your fat reserves (what little there is), at first, and after that's used up, start devouring your vital fluids."

Thus, your body cannibalizes itself.

If you carry this extreme behavior far enough for long enough.you die. That's a con, unless you have a death wish.

A pro is that since you're not eating, there is more food for those who do eat available in the supermarket.

Another pro is that since you don't waste time eating, you have more time to learn a foreign language, French for example.

A con is that many French people are already noted for their rudeness (watch the reaction you get by asking street directions in Paris in crude French with a Texas accent).

Adding more short-tempered people who are hungry and speaking French can only hurt. A con.

Except for Nero, Henry the Eighth, and Dick Cheney, most of the nasty tyrants down through history have invariably been thin. A con.

If you get thin enough, people can't tell if they're viewing you from the front, or the side. This can be a pro if you're trying to avoid somebody (they think you're coming towards them, when actually you're moving away).

Another pro is that when you get in the shower, there's less of you to soap, so the bar lasts longer. There are economic advantages beyond just saving money from not buying carrots.

A con is that the rise of eating disorders has produced feelings of superiority over and disdain for fat people. Americans already hate each other over politics, race, religion and class. Adding calories as an arrogant badge of honor makes us even more dysfunctional.

Of course, a pro is that hateful, prejudicial behavior, like someone saying, "you fat pig!"

This might result in someone who's obese getting mad and losing weight as an act of revenge.

Obesity is epidemic in America.

Americans are only interested in how they look, not what they think or believe. The dumbing down of America by posing and self-obsession is a con. But then again, if you're a vain narcissist who fixates only about how you look, you are hip with the times.

That's a pro.

You know the old saying, "don't be a square."

Now it's, "don't be round."

That's a pro if you're thin, a con if you're fat.

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Q:How many pro-anas does it take to screw in a lightbulb?

A: 100.

1 to actually screw it in.

10 to say "OMG, I wish I had your willpower! I've been sitting in the dark for the past month!"

20 to to claim that they were "Screwing in my lightbulb last year, but then my parents stopped me when it was almost in and made me unscrew it... now it's completely dark in here! I need motivation to start screwing it in again!"

15 to take pictures from bizarre angles that make it look like they're screwing in their lightbulbs.

14 to post pictures of Nicole Richie and Mary-Kate Olsen in close proximity to light bulbs.

10 to argue over whether or not screwing in a lightbulb is a choice or the result of a psychological problem.

10 to claim that their lightbulbs are completely screwed in, even though they're sitting in a dark room with an unscrewed bulb sitting next to them.

11 to say that they had their lightbulb partially screwed in last week,but spent the weekend unscrewing it because they lost their will power.

2 to write poems about the goddess lightbulb that guides them on their quest for light. and...

7 to come along randomly and ask how they can become light bulb screwers too.

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These are possibly the funniest things I've ever read. haha.

think thin think thin think thin think thin

Wow. I've been MIA for a little while. But during my absence I've been so strong! Not one piece of food has passed my lips :D so great! I'm exhausted though and all this coffee on such an empty stomach is making me jittery. I can't stop figeting, which is a good thing since it burns more cals. I've also been doing the salt-water flushes almost daily for the past week. I know there's nothing really in me to be flushing but it's good to clean out your system of built up matter. I feel so light and free right now. I'm still fat and gross but knowing there's nothing in me and that I've flushed all that build up from my body makes me feel clean and pure. It's nice.
This week I've learned how to play guitar and I've continued with my knitting. 1 hour of knitting burns 34 calories! Who knew?! Anyway, I'm going to knit and read all day. I think tomorrow I'll break this fast since, I feel like my metabolism is slowing. I'm going to do 4 hours of running tonight, kinda like crossing the finish line of this fast, going out victorious, before starting to eat again.

XOX PEACE, LOVE, AND STAY STRONG

When the world falls apart at mhy feet, I refuse to eat.

While ana is doing great and I've maintained my weight while on vacation, I think my entire life is about to fall apart at my feet. Just knowing this is a possibility is frightening because the only way to maintain control is to control my eating, and at the rate I've been going, more control for me would be stopping eating entirely. I'm terrified of what I'm capable of doing to myself and I feel it's slightly inevitable. I hate that I can't fix everything the way I can fix and control my weight. I don't know what to do or what to think. Tomorrow I'm starting a fast with no predetermined end, whenever I cannot continue any longer I'll break the fast. I hate myself for not being able to fix the world and arrange it perfectly. I hate muself for being weak and useless.

"I didn't eat for three days, so I could be lovely."

Food Diary:
b- coffee (0) + 16 grapes (24)
l- update later
d- update later

24

Exercise Log:
m- 0
a- update later
n- update later

0

I'm newly addicted to the show Skins and the character Cassie. She's amazingly crazy and thin. She reminds me of myself in a more concentrated form. She acts as crazy as I feel. And she's gorgeous and has amazing style. She's a new thinspo for me = )